The Perils of Perfectionism

I have always been something of a perfectionist, even when said perfection is obviously unachievable. This is especially true for my creative ventures, and whenever I discover something new, I have a tendency to go back and apply that new knowledge to old projects as well as new ones. Due to this, and the notes supplied to me by my beta-reader, Highway Hypnosis is currently unavailable in paperback. I have already revised the manuscript of several small but personally annoying errors, and will be re-releasing the novel within a few days. I’ll be sure to post as soon as it is available again.

Tim next time,

~Namaste

2017 Is Here

Wow, time sure does fly when you’re having fun, doesn’t it? Actually, it seems to fly regardless of the fun these days. 2016 was pretty much a shit-trifecta for me; the last three years have been particularly trying, financially, emotionally, and physically. I’ve had to endure the loss of my freedom and abuse at the hands of corrupt judges and spiteful court employees who got their panties in a bunch despite being innocent (no Ohio, I haven’t forgotten you), lost my home, suffered through extreme depression, and was forced to face more unpleasantness than I care to relate. Somehow, I managed to get my first paperback into print (after working on the manuscript for over two decades, but that’s another story), prevent myself from living in a box under an overpass, and even find some gainful employment while trying to further my artistic pursuits, but I can honestly say I never want to have to go through such a time again.
2016 was also a nasty year for so many others. We lost a good number of cherished actors, musicians, and other performers from our childhoods, watched as innocent people in Yemen and other nations were slaughtered, and endured a controversial election for our nation’s highest office.
Now, however, the great celestial cycle begins anew, and I can only hope that it will be a more positive year than the one previous. True, it is likely that the next four years will be harder for many, especially financially, for those in creative industries, but I still have hope. With that hope has come a newfound determination that I will not allow the events of the last three years to repeat themselves. I have learned much through those experiences, and will be using that knowledge to safeguard myself against such stressful and unpleasant things in the future. To do this, I will have to become much more proactive in how I deal with such things, and have renewed my determination to produce more creatively in the coming year. These are not resolutions, as they are a refreshing of goals, a renewed zest for making the best of the time I am allowed.
To that end, I am hoping to produce at least one more novel in the coming year. I learned a great deal from publishing my first paperback, and this should save me a great amount of stress and effort in regards to future works. I have about 100 pages of new manuscript, and hope to have the first draft completed by April. Normally, this would be an easy deadline, but having a young child at home puts my time at a premium. Still, I have high hopes that at least one of the writing projects I have on my list will see fruition in the year to come. I’ll be sure to update my blog with updates on current and future projects time goes on.
Also, I am looking into adding some blogs to my site via a Youtube channel. This would give me an opportunity to discuss various topics, give the occasional book review, and update various writing and art projects. This is only in the planning stage at the moment, but I’ll be sure to update those interested with any developments.
Well, that’s it for now. Best New Year’s wishes for everyone!
Until next time, I hope everyone has a wonderful 2017.

~Namaste

First Paperback Release!

My first novel, Highway Hypnosis, has finally been released! It is now available on both Createspace and on Amazon.com.
As many know, this is has been a VERY long road for me. I started this novel over twenty years ago, and have raised two children, received three black belts in different martial arts, got married again, had another baby, and nearly died, all in that timeframe. There were many times where I thought it to be an impossible undertaking, that I did not have the time, skill, or patience necessary to see it through, but somehow, never managed to lose hope, and now I can finally say I am an indie author.
So please, feel free to check out my book, and leave a review!

Proof Review Time

I’ve received what should be the final proof copy of Highway Hypnosis. The cover and print style is more than satisfactory, and barring any pagination or unexpected errors, I should be able to approve the proof once it has been proofread. I have a proofreader, and they will be going through the copy line by line to ensure that the book is of the highest quality I can deliver before release.
After so much time, I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel for this project, and feel confident enough to start working on my second novel – a story that involves the point where spirituality, string theory, and quantum mechanics meet – all within a dark suspense framework.
I’ll post the results of the proofreading when it is completed, and the site will be updated accordingly to make the print version available directly through the site.
So, until next time…

~Namaste

It’s Proof Time! (Again)

After finding a number of things in the last version of the manuscript for my novel, I went back to the drawing board — again — to hammer out some editing issues that desperately needed attention. This process required me to go through the manuscript in its entirety several times, until I had what I felt, and still feel, is the best version of the story that I could make. It wasn’t just grammatical issues that I had to contend with; editing is a tedious process, and there were many places where I felt the wording or descriptions were lacking, and I did my best to fix those, without losing the pace of the story. This novel has been a long (too long some would say) hard road for me, and after all that effort, I did not want to put out anything less than what I felt was the best of my ability. This included the cover design, description, and even the author bio. These all required several revisions, and each revision had to be reviewed before I could move forward, and this added several months to the overall project.
This is my first novel. There were bound to be mistakes, and I made them — plenty of them. But, I learned as much as could on every occasion, and have vowed to not repeat them as much as humanly possible. I believe that my further releases will not take anywhere near as long to bring to light as my first. I hope not, because if it does, I won’t live long enough to write more than another book or two.
Yes, it’s been that long.
But, after more rewrites and edits than I can count, a complete revision of the cover (I went from a hand-painted version to a more photographic look), and several edits of the description, which appears on the back cover, I am finally satisfied. That means it’s proof time again, and I’ll be sending off for one within the next few days. I have already reviewed the interior, and am happy with the typesetting, font, and so on, and this proof will be mainly for the quality of the cover image. If it looks good, I’ll finally be releasing it within the next week to ten days. I’ll be updating my blog as soon as this occurs, naturally.
Then, I’ll be able to sit back and relax…not.
Actually, I’ll be able to use all the time I used to spend on this novel, to write and edit my second novel, which has been screaming to be let loose into the world for the last couple of years. I’ve gone so far as completing most of the outline, several character bios, and have written about a hundred pages of the first draft.
Again, I’ll be posting more as the project continues.
But for now, I am finally done writing a story that has taken so many years to see the light of day. With any luck at all, I am only a proof away from publication.
Thanks for reading, and I hope everyone is having a wonderful summer.
Until next time,

~Namaste

Revised E-Book Now Available

The revised E-book version of Highway Hypnosis, my first novel length tale of horror, is now available at Smashwords.com. This edition has been thoroughly edited, and is only $4.99 for 177k words worth of scary goodness, so download your copy today.
You know you want to…
The print edition should be available next week. I will post purchasing details as soon as it is finished.

Writing Update – August 12,2016

I am currently working on several creative projects. In addition to new works of painted furniture that I create for Reincarnations Painted Furniture, I have been working on editing out the errors I found in my manuscript for Highway Hypnosis. I am about a third of the way through what will be the last edit, and I will once again be making the book available in both print and e-book formats. I have also completed the layout for the last painted illustration for the book, and will be making prints available sometime in the near future.
Being both an artist and writer, I have to juggle these various creative projects around a full-time job, as well the normal day-to-day errands and housework. I’ve also had to deal with the stress and other factors caused by the inept legal system in North Carolina (something I will be writing upon in length after the ordeal is over), and this has also played a part in delaying the final editing and publishing of my first novel. With any luck, a major part of that will be put behind me next Tuesday, and I can get on with a more normal life. Normal for a writer/artist, anyway. Combined, these activities—the writing, painting, editing, and normal life maintenance—give me about a 18-19 hour work day, seven days a week. In my life, there is never time to be bored, or a lack of things that have to be done. Fortunately for me, my job currently allows me to work on some of my creative projects in between my normal job duties, and thus I expect to be able to complete both the painted furniture, as well as the final revision of my manuscript, on time.
Of course, the publication of the novel will not be an end, but merely a beginning. I have several more novels, as well as some short stories, in the pipeline, and I am confident that these projects will take only a fraction of the time compared to this first novel, which for all authors, is a learning process.
So stay tuned – I should have news regarding the release dates of the revised version within the next few weeks.

~Namaste

That Time of Year

Every year, on August 5th, I try to reflect, and sometimes celebrate, my continued existence. In 2002, I was the victim of a near-fatal automobile accident in which I was ejected through the sun-roof of an SUV that was flipping over at 40+ mph. This time each year, I write about that event, how it affected me and changed my perceptions on life, and my reflections on that subject through that new perspective.
This marks the fourteenth year since that day, and this year has been harder to write about than most. The last few years have not been kind, and have tested both my spirit and my patience to its limit. I’ve been forced to suffer the height of injustice several times in the last few years, and these in turn have darkened my perspective on both my future and the state of society in general. These ordeals are not yet over, and the effects of them will stay with me for quite some time, possibly even for the rest of my life. I’ve learned to deal with the physical hardships; living with chronic pain every day due to the injuries I received has given me little choice in that regard. No, it’s the insults to my character and integrity that I have difficulty dealing with. Due to circumstances way beyond my ability to control, and the incompetence on the part of law enforcement in North Carolina, there are those close to me that have been given a skewed, false impression as to who I really am, and this more than anything else has caused me deep inner pain and grief. I have built my character around the concepts of truth, honesty, and loyalty, and when these are questioned by those with no qualifications to do so, it gets my under my skin.
Each year, around this time, I make a Life Determination, based on the previous year, similar to those most do on New Year’s, only with more conviction and sincerity than a mere resolution. This year, I have decided that no longer allow the opinions of these people affect me. Life is simply too short and fragile to waste time on things. I will do nothing to correct those false impressions other than to continue living my life as I have – with honor and personal integrity. In time, the truth of these matters will be shown, and Karma will perform its function. Truth exists despite the best efforts of others to obfuscate, twist, distort, or deny it. Eventually, it makes itself known, and when the day comes for me to face the dark, I will face it with my integrity intact.

~Namaste

Time Vs. Creativity

I have several creative projects ongoing at the moment, and the real challenge has been to divide my time between editing, painting, design, and website maintenance. I use my downtime at work to edit my novel, and am at the half-way point at page 205. The final illustration painting for the novel, which will be used in a later promotion, has been fully sketched out and is awaiting painting. Meanwhile, I’ve begun working on three new painted furniture projects. These have been primed, and the designs for them are in the process of being transferred to the table surface for painting. Of these 3 separate endeavors, the illustration will be the easiest, as I have to do now is paint it. Editing requires not only reading and re-writing, but formatting the finished result into both e-book and printed formats, and uploading them to their respective sites. Despite all this, I am shooting to complete all of them by the end of August, so stay tuned!

~Namaste

Just When You Think It’s Over

Just when you think it’s over – you find another reason to edit.
I’m currently editing my novel – again – as the review of my digital proof turned up more items that left me unsatisfied. I’m up to chapter 10, and will post more news as I progress. I’d like to be able to announce a final publication date, but I’m engaged in several enterprises at the moment in addition to working full-time, and the human body can only work so hard before it begins to break down. So, in order to maintain both my physical and mental health, I do my best not to overwork myself in any one direction.
Still, I’m hoping to finish my last edit within the next few weeks, and will releasing both the e-book and print editions at that time.
I’ve learned much in the process of creating this first novel, and will be sure to streamline the process for future works. Editing is the most important (and most tedious) part of the writing process, and as I am a perfectionist, will continue that process as many times as necessary to ensure the best possible result. I’ve worked on this novel for a long time, and refuse to release anything that does not meet my standards in terms of format and editing.
In other writing news, I’ve been working on a new novel, which I hope to release by the end of the year, as well as a short story that will be included in a later collection. More details are forthcoming, so be sure to visit often!
Until next time, I hope all my watchers are having a glorious summer.

~Namaste