Monthly Archives: August 2024

Hard Times

…made harder with no real internet.

Greetings,

Things have been stressful of late, thanks in no small part to a couple bad auto mechanics and some generally low-moral people I’ve had to deal with lately. I still do not have a good internet connection, and this made for some interesting times after a lost connection cost me the ability to service my websites. It took several rounds of emails to address this problem, which highlighted the need for phone support by webhost companies. Most had phone support at one time, but like almost all other aspects of business over the last couple of years, the desire for maximum profits and minimum work ethic has led to phone support becoming a techno-unicorn. It is still difficult as hell to post even these blog entries, and nearly impossible to make any real edits to the website for the time being, but with luck, this will be a temporary inconvenience.
Luck being the key word.
Life is getting rather strange out there, in case you haven’t noticed. Even those that do know what is transpiring are too busy attempting to survive, while also being manipulated on every side by every media source in order to separate and conquer. It is getting harder and harder for the average person to make a living, much less those in the creative fields. This is not just true for me – I observe things over time, and have seen the economy and quality of living decline for artists and the average man over the past several years in a fashion that would have been described as insane once upon a time. Recent times have been strange and stressful, perhaps more than they have been since the narcissistic abuse I suffered and its aftermath, and there are times where I wonder if I still have the strength and resolve to face them in the way I am accustomed.
Time will tell I guess.
I still have plans of starting a Youtube channel for my writing, a counterpart to the channel I created for my art. I was delaying acting on this until I could perhaps make a title sequence to use for the channel, but I am thinking I may just dive in, and add graphical elements as time goes on.
Again, time will tell, I suppose.
Well, it’s getting late. Time to go.

Until Next Time,
~Namaste

Sweet Miracle

Oh, sweet miracle
Oh, sweet miracle of life
-RUSH

Greetings,

There have been a good deal of stressful events in my life of late, both with my recent move to the Eastern shore of Virginia and otherwise. Although I could possibly make this statement at almost any point in my life, these recent times have proven this to be especially true. I think it would be fair to say this recent and present period could even be defined as constituting a life crisis. I have faced such challenges before, and my continued existence is enough to show my success in dealing with those dire times. In the past, I would often have to face such troubles alone, and I was fortunate enough to have the strength and endurance required to succeed. Then, on this day in 2002, I survived an accident in such a way as to be the sole known survivor of that type of accident by two insurance companies. Needless to say, this impaired me on many levels, chief among them being my physical abilities.
This, and the passage of time, would make handling the events of the recent few months incredibly difficult, if not impossible for me to deal with on my own. I have had the incredible good fortune to be supported by not only those in my family, but in good friends and the support of our local church. I am honored to know these people, and were it not for their support and understanding, would be facing a difficult and troubling future. After having to deal with years of narcissistic abuse and its after-effects, I have been blessed to have empathetic people around me, and feel a sense of balance in the world again. I do not believe I will ever be able to express the depths of my gratitude, but I will do what I can to carry the spirit of their generosity forward.
I hope the same for us all.

Until Next Time,
~Namaste